Osho - The
Empty Boat
Chapter 2. The
Man of Tao
The man of Tao acts without impediment,
Harms no other being by his actions,
Yet he does not know himself to be kind and gentle.
He does not struggle to make money,
And he does not make a virtue of poverty.
He goes his way without relying on others,
And does not pride himself on walking alone.
The man of Tao remains unknown.
Perfect virtue produces nothing.
No self is true self.
And the greatest man is nobody.
The most difficult thing, the
almost impossible thing for the mind, is to remain in the middle, is to remain
balanced. And to move from one thing to its opposite is the easiest. To move
from one polarity to the opposite polarity is the nature of the mind. This has
to be understood very deeply, because unless you understand this, nothing can
lead you to meditation.
Mind's nature is to move from
one extreme to another. It depends on imbalance. If you are balanced, mind
disappears. Mind is like a disease: when you are imbalanced it is there, when
you are balanced, it is not there.
That is why it is easy for a
person who overeats to go on a fast. It looks illogical, because we think that
a person who is obsessed with food cannot go on a fast. But you are wrong. Only
a person who is obsessed with food can fast, because fasting is the same
obsession in the opposite direction. It is not really changing yourself. You
are still obsessed with food. Before you were overeating; now you are hungry -
but the mind remains focused on food from the opposite extreme.
A man who has been
overindulging in sex can become a celibate very easily. There is no problem.
But it is difficult for the
mind to come to the right diet, difficult for the mind to stay in the middle.
Why is it difficult to stay in
the middle? It is just like the pendulum of a clock. The pendulum goes to the
right, then it moves to the left, then again to the right, then again to the
left; the whole clock depends on this movement. If the pendulum stays in the
middle, the clock stops. And when the pendulum moves to the right, you think it
is only going to the right, but at the same time it is gathering momentum to go
to the left. The more it moves to the right, the more energy it gathers to move
to the left, to the opposite. When it is moving to the left it is again
gathering momentum to move to the right.
Whenever you overeat, you are
gathering momentum to go on a fast. Whenever you overindulge in sex, sooner or
later, BRAHMACHARYA, celibacy, will appeal to you.
And the same is happening from
the opposite pole. Go and ask your so-called SADHUS, your BHIKKUS, sannyasins.
They have made it a point to remain celibate, now their minds are gathering
momentum to move into sex. They have made a point of being hungry and starving,
and their minds are constantly thinking about food. When you are thinking about
food too much it shows that you are gathering momentum for it. Thinking means
momentum. The mind starts arranging for the opposite.
One thing: whenever you move,
you are also moving to the opposite. The opposite is hidden, it is not
apparent.
When you love a person you are
gathering momentum to hate him. That's why only friends can become enemies. You
cannot suddenly become an enemy unless you have first become a friend.
Lovers quarrel, fight. Only
lovers can quarrel and fight, because unless you love, how can you hate?
Unless you have moved far to
the extreme left, how can you move to the right? Modern research says that
so-called love is a relationship of intimate enmity. Your wife is your intimate
enemy, your husband is your intimate enemy - both intimate and inimical. They
appear opposites, illogical, because we wonder how one who is intimate can be
the enemy; one who is a friend, how can he also be the foe?
Logic is superficial, life goes
deeper, and in life all opposites are joined together, they exist together.
Remember this, because then
meditation becomes balancing.
Buddha taught eight
disciplines, and with each discipline he used the word right. He said: Right
effort, because it is very easy to move from action to inaction, from waking to
sleep, but to remain in the middle is difficult. When Buddha used the word
right he was saying: Don't move to the opposite, just stay in the middle. Right
food - he never said to fast. Don't indulge in too much eating and don't
indulge in fasting. He said: Right food. Right food means standing in the
middle.
When you are standing in the
middle you are not gathering any momentum. And this is the beauty of it - a man
who is not gathering any momentum to move anywhere, can be at ease with
himself, can be at home.
You can never be at home,
because whatsoever you do you will immediately have to do the opposite to
balance. And the opposite never balances, it simply gives you the impression
that you are becoming balanced, but you will have to move to the opposite
again.
A buddha is neither a friend to
anyone nor an enemy. He has simply stopped in the middle - the clock is not
functioning.
It is said about one Hassid
mystic, Muzheed, that when he attained enlightenment suddenly the clock on his
wall stopped. It may or may not have happened, because it is possible, but the
symbolism is clear: when your mind stops, time stops; when the pendulum stops,
the clock stops. From then on the clock never moved, from then on it always
showed the same time.
Time is created by the movement
of the mind, just like the movement of the pendulum. Mind moves, you feel time.
When mind is nonmoving, how can you feel time? When there is no movement, time cannot
be felt. Scientists and mystics agree on this point: that movement creates the
phenomenon of time. If you are not moving, if you are still, time disappears,
eternity comes into existence.
Your clock is moving fast, and
its mechanism is movement from one extreme to another.
The second thing to be
understood about mind is that the mind always longs for the distant, never for
the near. The near gives you boredom, you are fed up with it; the distant gives
you dreams, hopes, possibility of pleasure. So the mind always thinks of the
distant. It is always somebody else's wife who is attractive, beautiful; it is
always somebody else's house which obsesses you; it is always somebody else's
car which fascinates you. It is always the distant. You are blind to the near.
The mind cannot see that which is very near. It can only see that which is very
far.
And what is the furthest, the
most distant? The opposite is the most distant. You love a person - now hatred
is the most distant phenomenon; you are overeating - now fasting is the most
distant phenomenon; you are celibate - now sex is the most distant phenomenon;
you are a king - now to be a monk is the most distant phenomenon.
The most distant is the most
dreamy. It attracts, it obsesses, it goes on calling, inviting you, and then
when you have reached the other pole, this place from where you have traveled
will become beautiful again. Divorce your wife, and after a few years the wife
has again gained beauty.
A film actress came to me. She
had divorced her husband fifteen years ago. Now she is old, less beautiful than
she was when she and her husband were separated. Their son was married last
year, so at the marriage she met her husband again, and they had to travel
together. The husband fell in love with her again, so she came to me and asked,
"What should I do? Now he is proposing again, he wants to get married to
me again."
She was also fascinated. She
was just waiting for me to say yes. I said, "But you lived together, there
was always conflict and nothing else. I know the whole story - how you were
fighting, quarreling, how you created hell and misery for each other. Now
again...?"
For the mind the opposite is
magnetic, and unless through understanding you transcend this, the mind will go
on moving from left to right, from right to left, and the clock will continue.
It has continued for many
lives, and this is how you have been deceiving yourself - because you don't
understand the mechanism. Again the distant becomes appealing, again you start
traveling.
The moment you reach your goal
that which you used to know is now distant, now has appeal, now becomes a star,
something worthwhile.
I was reading about a pilot who
was flying over California with a friend. He told the friend, "Look down
at that beautiful lake. I was born near it, that is my village."
He pointed to a small village
just perched in the hills near the lake, and he said, "I was born there.
When I was a child I used to
sit near the lake and fish; fishing was my hobby. But at that time, when I was
a child fishing near the lake, always airplanes used to fly in the sky, passing
overhead, and I would dream of the day when I would become a pilot myself, I
would be piloting an airplane. That was my only dream. Now it is fulfilled, and
what misery! Now I am continuously looking down at the lake and thinking about
when I will retire and go fishing again. That lake is so beautiful...."
This is how things are
happening. This is how things are happening to you. In childhood, you long to
grow up fast because older people are more powerful. A child longs to grow up
immediately. Old people are wise, and the child feels that whatsoever he does,
it is always wrong. And then ask the old man - he always thinks that when
childhood was lost, everything was lost; paradise was there in childhood. And
all the old men die thinking of childhood, the innocence, the beauty, the
dreamland.
Whatsoever you have looks
useless, whatsoever you don't have looks useful. Remember this, otherwise
meditation cannot happen, because meditation means this understanding of the
mind, the working of the mind, the very process of the mind.
The mind is dialectical, it
makes you move again and again towards the opposite. And this is an infinite
process, it never ends unless you suddenly drop out of it, unless you suddenly
become aware of the game, unless you suddenly become aware of the trick of the
mind, and you stop in the middle.
Stopping in the middle is
meditation.
Thirdly, because mind consists
of polarities, you are never whole. The mind cannot be whole; it is always
half. When you love someone have you observed that you are suppressing your
hatred?
The love is not total, it is
not whole; just behind it all the dark forces are hidden and they may erupt any
moment. You are sitting on a volcano.
When you love someone, you
simply forget that you have anger, you have hate, you have jealousy.
You simply drop them as if they
never existed. But how can you drop them? You can simply hide them in the
unconscious. Just on the surface you can become loving, deep down the turmoil
is hidden. Sooner or later you will be fed up, the beloved will become
familiar.
They say that familiarity
breeds contempt, but it is not that familiarity breeds contempt - familiarity
makes you bored, contempt has always been there, hidden. It comes up, it was
waiting for the right moment; the seed was there.
The mind always has the
opposite within it, and that opposite goes into the unconscious and waits for
its moment to come up. If you observe minutely, you will feel it every moment.
When you say to someone, I love you, close your eyes, be meditative, and feel -
is there any hatred hidden? You will feel it. But because you want to deceive
yourself, because the truth is so ugly - the truth that you hate a person that
you love - you don't want to face it. You want to escape from real-ity, so you
hide it. But hiding won't help, because it is not deceiving somebody else, it
is deceiving yourself.
So whenever you feel something,
just close the eyes and go into yourself to find the opposite somewhere. It is
there. And if you can see the opposite, that will give you a balance, then you
will not say, "I love you." If you are truthful you will say,
"My relationship with you is of love and hate."
All relationships are love/hate
relationships. No relationship is of pure love, and no relationship is of pure
hate. It is both love and hate. If you are truthful you will be in difficulty.
If you say to a girl, "My relationship with you is of both love and hate.
I love you as I have never loved anybody and I hate you as I have never hated
anybody," it will be difficult for you to get married unless you find a meditative
girl who can understand the reality; unless you can find a friend who can
understand the complexity of the mind.
Mind is not a simple mechanism,
it is very complex, and through mind you can never become simple because mind
goes on creating deceptions. To be meditative means to be aware of the fact
that mind is hiding something from you, you are closing your eyes to some facts
which are disturbing.
Sooner or later those
disturbing facts will erupt, overpower you, and you will move to the opposite.
And the opposite is not there
in a distant faraway place, in some star; the opposite is hidden behind you, in
you, in your mind, in the very functioning of the mind. If you can understand
this, you will stop in the middle.
If you can see I love and I
hate, suddenly both will disappear, because both cannot exist together in the
consciousness. You have to create a barrier: one has to exist in the
unconscious and one in the conscious. Both cannot exist in the conscious, they
will negate each other. The love will destroy hate, the hate will destroy love;
they will balance each other, and they will simply disappear.
The same amount of hate and the
same amount of love will negate each other. Suddenly they will evaporate - you
will be there, but no love and no hate. Then you are balanced.
When you are balanced, mind is
not there - then you are whole. When you are whole, you are holy, but mind is
not there. So meditation is a state of no-mind. Through mind it is not
achieved.
Through mind, whatever you do,
it can never be achieved. Then what are you doing when you are meditating?
Because you have created so
much tension in your life, you are now meditating. But this is the opposite of
tension, not real meditation. You are so tense that meditation has become
attractive.
That is why in the West
meditation appeals more than in the East, because more tension exists there
than in the East. The East is still relaxed, people are not so tense, they
don't go mad so easily, they don't commit suicide so easily. They are not so violent,
not so aggressive, not so scared, not so fearful - no, they are not so tense.
They are not living at such a mad speed where nothing but tension is
accumulated.
So if Mahesh Yogi comes to
India, nobody listens. But in America, people are mad about him.
When there is much tension,
meditation will appeal. But this appeal is again falling into the same trap.
This is not real meditation, this is again a trick. You meditate for a few
days, you become relaxed; when you become relaxed, again the need for activity
arises, and the mind starts thinking of doing something, of moving. You get
bored with it.
People come to me and say,
"We meditated for a few years, then it became boring, then there was no
more fun."
Just the other day a girl came
to me and said, "Now meditation is not fun anymore, what should I
do?"
Now the mind is seeking
something else, now it has had enough of meditation. Now that she is at ease,
the mind is asking for more tensions - something to get disturbed about. When
she says that now meditation is no more fun, she means that now the tension is
not there, so how can the meditation be fun? She will have to move into tension
again, then meditation will again become something worthwhile.
Look at the absurdity of the
mind: you have to go away to come near, you have to become tense to be
meditative. But then this is not meditation, then again this is a trick of the
same mind; on a new level the same game continues.
When I say meditation, I mean
going beyond the game of the polar opposites; dropping out of the whole game,
looking at the absurdity of it and transcending it. The very understanding
becomes transcendence.
The mind will force you to move
to the opposite - don't move to the opposite. Stop in the middle and see that
this has always been the trick of the mind. This is how mind has dominated you
- through the opposite. Have you felt it?
After making love to a woman
you suddenly start thinking of brahmacharya, and brahmacharya has such an
alluring fascination at that moment that you feel as if there is nothing else
to achieve. You feel frustrated, deceived, you feel that there was nothing in
this sex, only brahmacharya has the bliss. But after twenty-four hours, sex
again becomes important, significant, and again you have to move into it.
What is the mind doing? After
the sex act it started thinking about the opposite, which again creates the
taste for sex.
A violent man starts thinking
about nonviolence, then he can be violent again easily. A man who gets angry
again and again always thinks of non-anger, always decides not to be angry
again. This decision helps him to be angry again.
If you really want not to be
angry again don't decide against anger. Just look into the anger and just look
at the shadow of the anger which you think is non-anger. Look into sex, and at
the shadow of sex, which you think is brahmacharya, celibacy. It is just
negativity, absence. Look at overeating, and the shadow of it - fasting.
Fasting always follows overeating; overindulgence is always followed by vows of
celibacy; tension is always followed by some techniques of meditation. Look at
them together, feel how they are related; they are part of one process.
If you can understand this,
meditation will happen to you. Really, it is not something to be done, it is a point
of understanding. It is not an effort, it is nothing to be cultivated. It is
something to be deeply understood.
Understanding gives freedom.
Knowledge of the whole mechanism of the mind is transformation.
Then suddenly the clock stops,
time disappears: and with the stopping of the clock, there is no mind.
With the stopping of time,
where are you? The boat is empty.
Now we will enter this sutra of
Chuang Tzu:
The man of Tao acts without impediment,
Harms no other being by his actions,
Yet he does not know himself to be kind and gentle.
The man of tao acts without impediment... You act always with
impediment, the opposite is always there creating the impediment; you are not a
flow.
If you love, the hate is always
there as an impediment. If you move, something is holding you back; you never
move totally, something is always left, the movement is not total. You move
with one leg but the other leg is not moving. How can you move? The impediment
is there.
And this impediment, this
continuous moving of the half and nonmoving of the other half, is your anguish,
your anxiety. Why are you in so much anguish? What creates so much anxiety in
you?
Whatsoever you do, why is bliss
not happening through it? Bliss can happen only to the whole, never to the
part.
When the whole moves without
any impediment the very movement is bliss. Bliss is not something that comes
from outside - it is the feeling that comes when your whole being moves, the
very movement of the whole is bliss. It is not something happening to you, it arises
out of you, it is a harmony in your being.
If you are divided - and you
are always divided: half-moving, half-withholding, half saying yes, half saying
no, half in love, half in hate, you are a divided kingdom - there is constant
conflict in you. You say something but you never mean it, because the opposite
is there impeding, creating a hindrance.
Baal Shem's disciples used to
write down whatsoever he said, and Baal Shem used to say: I know that
whatsoever you are writing is not what has been said by me. You have heard one
thing, I have said something else, and you are writing still something else.
And if you look at the meaning, the meaning is something else again. You will
never do what you have written, you will do something else - fragments, not an
integrated being.
Why are these fragments there?
Have you heard the story about
the centipede? A centipede was walking along on his one hundred legs - that is
why he is called a centipede. It is a miracle to walk with a hundred feet, even
to manage two is so difficult! To manage one hundred legs is really almost
impossible. But the centipede has been managing to do it!
A fox became curious - and
foxes are always curious. The fox is the symbol in folklore of the mind, of the
intellect, of logic. Foxes are great logicians.The fox looked, she observed,
she analyzed, she couldn't believe it. She said, "Wait! I have a question.
How do you manage, and how do you know which foot has to follow which? One
hundred legs! You walk so smoothly. How does this harmony happen?"
The centipede said, "I
have been walking all my life but I have never thought about it. Give me a
little time."
So he closed his eyes and for
the first time he became divided: the mind as observer, and himself as the
observed. For the first time the centipede became two. He had always been
living and walking, and his life was one whole; there was no observer standing
looking at himself, he was never divided, he had been an integrated being. Now,
for the first time, division arose. He was looking at his own self, thinking.
He had become subject and object, he had become two, and then he started
walking.
It was difficult, almost
impossible. He fell down - because how do you manage one hundred legs?
The fox laughed and he said,
"I knew it must be difficult, I knew it beforehand."
The centipede started crying
and weeping. With tears in his eyes he said, "It has never been difficult
before, but you have created the problem. Now I will never be able to walk
again."
The mind has come into being;
it comes into being when you are divided. The mind feeds on division. That is
why Krishnamurti keeps saying that when the observer has become the observed
you are in meditation.
The opposite happened to the
centipede. The wholeness was lost, he became two: the observer and the
observed, divided; the subject and the object, the thinker and the thought.
Then everything was disturbed, then bliss was lost and the flow stopped. Then he
got frozen.
Whenever the mind comes in, it
comes as a controlling force, a manager. It is not the master, it is the
manager. And you cannot get to the master unless this manager is put aside.The
manager won't allow you to reach the master, the manager will always be
standing in the doorway managing. And all managers only mismanage - mind has
done such a great job of mismanaging.
Poor centipede. He had always
been happy. He had no problems at all. He lived, moved, loved, everything, no
problems at all, because there was no mind. Mind came in with the problem, with
the question, with the inquiry. And there are many foxes around you. Beware of
them - philosophers, theologians, logicians, professors all around you - foxes.
They ask you questions and they create a disturbance.
Chuang Tzu's master, Lao Tzu,
said: When there was not a single philosopher, everything was solved, there
were no questions, and all answers were available. When philosophers arose,
questions came and answers disappeared. Whenever there is a question the answer
is very far away. Whenever you ask, you will never get the answer, but when you
stop asking, you will find that the answer has always been there.
I do not know what happened to
this centipede. If he was as foolish as human beings, he would be somewhere in
a hospital, crippled, paralyzed forever. But I don't think that centipedes are
so foolish.
He must have thrown the
question out. He must have told the fox, "Keep your questions to yourself,
and let me walk." He must have come to know that division wouldn't allow
him to live, because division creates death. Undivided you are life, divided
you become dead - the more divided, the more dead.
What is bliss? Bliss is the
feeling that comes to you when the obser-ver has become the observed. Bliss is
the feeling that comes to you when you are in harmony, not fragmented; one, not
disintegrated, not divided. Feeling is not something that happens from the
outside. It is the melody that arises out of your inner harmoniousness.
Says Chuang Tzu:
The man of Tao acts without impediment...
He is not divided so who is
there to impede? What is there to function as an impediment? He is alone, he
moves with his wholeness. This movement in wholeness is the greatest beauty
that can happen, that is possible. Sometimes you have glimpses of it. Sometimes
when you are suddenly whole, when the mind is not functioning, it happens.
The sun is rising...suddenly
you look, and the observer is not there. The sun is not there and you are not
there, there is no observer and no observed. Simply the sun is rising and your
mind is not there to manage. You don't see it and say, "The sun is
beautiful." The moment you say it the bliss is lost. Then there is no
bliss, it has already become the past, it is already gone.
Suddenly you see the sun
rising, and the seer is not there; the seer has not yet come into being, it has
not become a thought. You have not looked, you have not analyzed, you have not
observed.
The sun is rising and there is
no one, the boat is empty; there is bliss, a glimpse. But the mind immediately
comes in, and says, "The sun is beautiful, this sunrise is so
beautiful." The comparison has come in and the beauty is lost.
Those who know say that
whenever you say "I love you" to a person, the love is lost. The love
has already gone because the lover has come in. How can love exist when the
division, the manager, has come in? It is the mind which says "I love
you," because, really, in love there is no I and no thou.
In love there are no
individuals. Love is a melting, a merging, they are not two.
Love exists, not the lovers. In
love, love exists not the lovers, but the mind comes in and says, "I am in
love, I love you." When 'I' comes, doubt enters; division comes in and
love is there no more.
You will come many times to
such glimpses in your meditation. Remember, whenever you feel such a glimpse,
don't say, "How beautiful!" don't say, "How lovely!"
because this is how you will lose it.
Whenever the glimpse comes, let
the glimpse be there. Don't do what the centipede did - don't raise any
question, don't make any observation, don't analyze, don't allow the mind to
come in. Walk with a hundred legs, but don't think about how you are walking.
When in meditation you have the
glimpse of some ecstasy, let it happen, let it go deep. Don't divide yourself.
Don't make any statement, otherwise the contact is lost.
Sometimes you have glimpses,
but you have become so efficient at losing your contact with those glimpses
that you cannot understand how they come and how you lose them again. They come
when you are not, you lose them when you come again. When you are, they are
not. When the boat is empty, bliss is always happening. It is not an accident,
it is the very nature of existence. It doesn't depend on anything - it is a
showering, it is the very breath of life.
It is really a miracle how you
have managed to be so miserable, so thirsty, when it is raining everywhere. You
have really done the impossible! Light is everywhere and you live in darkness;
death is nowhere and you are constantly dying; life is a benediction and you
are in hell.
How have you managed it?
Through division, through thinking.... Thinking depends on division, analysis;
meditation is when there is no analysis, no division, when everything has
become synthesized, when everything has become one.
Says Chuang Tzu:
The man of Tao acts without impediment,
Harms no other being by his actions.
How can he do harm? You can
harm others only when you have already harmed yourself.
Remember this; this is the
secret. If you harm yourself, you will harm others. And you will harm even when
you think you are doing good to others. Nothing can happen through you but
harm, because one who lives with wounds, one who lives in anguish and misery,
whatsoever he does he will create more misery and anguish for others. You can
give only that which you have got.
I have heard that once a beggar
came to a synagogue and he told the rabbi, "I am a great musician, and I
have heard that the musician who belonged to this synagogue is dead, and you
are looking for another. So I offer myself."
The rabbi and the congregation
were happy because they were really missing their music. Then the man played -
it was horrible! It was more musical without his music. He created a hell. It
was impossible to feel any silence in that synagogue that morning. He had to be
stopped, because most of the congregation started to leave. People escaped as
fast as they could because his music was just anarchic, it was like madness,
and it started to affect people.
When the rabbi heard that
everybody was leaving, he went to the man and stopped him. The man said,
"If you don't want me, you can pay for this morning and then I will
go."
The rabbi said, "It is
impossible to pay you, we have never experienced such a horrible thing."
Then the musician said,
"Okay, then keep it as a contribution from me."
The rabbi said, "But how
can you contribute what you don't possess? You don't have any music at all -
how can you contribute? You can contribute something only when you have got it.
This is no music; rather, on the contrary, it is something like antimusic. So
please take it away with you, don't contribute it to us or it will go on
haunting us."
You give only that which you
have. You always give your being. If you are dead within, you cannot help life;
wherever you go you will kill. Knowingly, unknowingly, that is not the point -
you may think that you are helping others to live, but still you will kill.
A great psychoanalyst, Wilhelm
Reich, who was studying children and their problems, was asked once, "What
is the most basic problem with children? What do you find at the root of all
their miseries, problems, abnormalities?"
He said, "The
mothers."
No mother can agree with this,
because every mother feels that she is just helping her children without any
selfishness on her part. She is living and dying for the child. And
psychoanalysts say mothers are the problem. Unknowingly they are killing,
crippling; knowingly they think they are loving.
If you are crippled within, you
will cripple your children. You cannot do anything else, you can't help it,
because you give out of your being - there is no other way to give.
Says Chuang Tzu: The man of Tao... harms no other being by
his actions. Not that he cultivates nonviolence, not that he cultivates
compassion, not that he lives a good life, not that he behaves in a saintly way
- no. He cannot harm because he has stopped harming himself. He has no wounds.
He is so blissful that from his actions or inactions only bliss flows. Even
though it may appear sometimes that he is doing something wrong, he cannot.
It is just the opposite with
you. Sometimes it appears that you are doing something good. You cannot. The
man of Tao cannot do harm, it is impossible. There is no way to do it, it is
inconceivable - because he is without divisions, fragments. He is not a crowd,
he is not polypsychic. He is a universe now and nothing other than melody is
happening inside. Only this music goes on spreading.
The man of Tao is not one of
much action - he is not a man of action, the least possible action happens through
him. He is really a man of inaction, he is not much occupied with activity.
But you are occupied with
activity just to escape from yourself. You cannot tolerate yourself, you cannot
tolerate the company of yourself. You keep looking for somebody as an escape,
some occupation in which you can forget yourself, in which you can get
involved. You are so bored with yourself.
A man of Tao, a man who has
attained the inner nature, a man who is really religious, is not a man of much
activity. Only the necessary will happen. The unnecessary is cut out
completely, because he can be at ease without activity, he can be at home
without doing anything, he can relax, he can be company for himself, he can be
with his self.
You cannot be with yourself,
hence the constant urge to seek company. Go to a club, go to a meeting, go to a
party, move into the crowd, where you are not alone. You are so afraid of
yourself that if you are left alone you will go mad. In just three weeks if you
are left absolutely alone without any activity, you will go mad. And this is
not something said by religious people, now psychologists agree to it. For only
three weeks, if all activity, if all company, is taken from you, if you are
left alone in a room, within three weeks you will be mad - because all your
activity is just to throw out your madness, it is a catharsis.
What will you do when you are
alone? For the first three or four days you will dream and talk within, an
inner chattering. Then this will become boring. After the first week you will
start talking aloud because at least you will hear the sound of your own voice.
When you walk along a dark street at night you start whistling. Why? How is
this whistling going to give you courage? How is this whistling going to help
you? Just listening to it you feel that you are not alone, somebody is
whistling. The illusion of two is created!
After the first week you will
start talking aloud because then you can also listen. You are not alone, you
are talking and you are listening as if somebody else is talking to you. After
the second week you will start answering yourself. You will not only talk, you
will answer - you are divided. Now you are two; one who questions, one who
answers. Now there is a dialogue - you have gone completely crazy.
A man asked his psychiatrist,
"I am very worried, I talk to myself. What should I do? Can you help
me?"
The psychiatrist said,
"This is nothing to be worried about. Everybody talks to himself, this is
not a big problem. Only when you start answering, then come to me, then I can
be of help."
But the difference is only of
degree; it is not of kind, it is only of quantity. If you start talking to
yourself, sooner or later you will start answering also, because how can one go
on simply talking?
The answer is needed, otherwise
you will feel foolish. By the third week you start answering - you have gone
crazy.
This world, the world of
activity, business and occupation, saves you from the madhouse. If you are
occupied, energy moves out; then you need not care about the inward, the inner
world, you can forget it.
A man of Tao is not a man of
much activity - only the essential activity. It is said of Chuang Tzu that if
he could stand, he would not walk, if he could sit, he would not stand, if he
could fall asleep, he would not sit. The essential, the most essential, only
the must would he do, because there is no madness in it.
You do the nonessential, you
keep on doing the nonessential. Look at your activities: ninety-nine percent
are nonessential. You can drop them, you can save much energy, you can save
much time.
But you cannot drop them
because you are afraid, you are scared of yourself. If there is no radio, no
television, no newspaper, nobody to talk to, what will you do?
I have heard about a priest who
died. Of course, he expected to go to paradise, to heaven. He arrived there and
everything was beautiful. The house he entered was one of the most wonderful
ever dreamed of, palatial. And the moment a desire came, immediately a servant
appeared. If he was hungry, a servant was there with the food, the most
delicious he had ever tasted. If he was thirsty, even before the desire had
become a thought, while it was just the feeling, a man would appear with
drinks.
So it continued and he was very
happy for two or three days, and then he began to feel uneasy because a man has
to do something, you cannot just sit in a chair. Only a man of Tao can just sit
in a chair and go on sitting and sitting and sitting. You cannot.
The priest became uneasy. For
two or three days it is okay as a holiday, as a rest. He had been so active -
so much public service, mission, church, delivering sermons; he had been so
involved with society and the community, so he rested. But how much can you
rest? Unless your being is at rest, sooner or later the holiday ends, and you
have to come back to the world. Uneasiness arose; he started feeling
discomfort.
Suddenly the servant appeared
and asked, "What do you want? This feeling of yours is not a want, you are
neither thirsty nor hungry, just uneasy. So what should I do?"
The priest said, "I cannot
sit here forever and forever, for eternity, I want some activity."
The servant said, "That is
impossible. All your desires will be fulfilled here by us, so what need is
there for activity? There is no need, that is why it is not provided
here."
The priest became very uneasy
and he said, "What type of heaven is this?"
The servant replied, "Who
said this is heaven? This is hell. Who told you this is heaven?"
And this really was hell. Now
he understood: without activity, this was hell. He must have gone mad sooner or
later. No communication or talk, no social service to be done, no pagans to be
converted to Christianity, no foolish people to be made wise - what could he
do?
Only a man of Tao could have
changed that hell into a heaven. A man of Tao, wherever he is, is at peace, at
ease. Only the essential is done, and if you can do the essential for him, he
is happy. The nonessential is dropped.
You cannot drop the
nonessential. Really, ninety-nine percent of your energy is wasted on the
nonessential. The essential is not enough, and the mind always hankers for the
nonessential, because the essential is so little, so small, it can be fulfilled
easily. Then what will you do?
People are not very interested
in having good food. They are more interested in having a big car because good
food can be attained very easily. Then what? People are not interested in
having good healthy bodies. That can be attained very easily. They are
interested in something which cannot be attained so easily, something
impossible, and the nonessential is always the impossible.
There are always bigger houses,
bigger cars, they go on getting bigger and bigger and you are never allowed to
rest.
The whole world is trying to
fulfill the nonessential. Ninety percent of industry is involved with the
nonessential. Fifty percent of human labor is wasted on that which is not
useful in any way.
Fifty percent of industry is
devoted to the feminine mind, rather, feminine body: designing new dresses
every three months, designing new houses, clothes, powders, soaps, creams;
fifty percent of industry is devoted to such nonsense. And humanity is
starving, people are dying without food, and half of humanity is interested in
the absolutely nonessential.
To reach the moon is absolutely
nonessential. If we were a little wiser we would not even think about it. It is
absolutely foolish wasting as much money as could feed the whole earth. Wars
are nonessential, but humanity is mad, and it needs wars more than food. It
needs to go to the moon more than food, more than clothes, more than the
essential, because the essential is not enough.
And now science has created the
greatest horror, and that horror is that now the essential can be fulfilled
very easily. Within ten years, all humanity's needs can be fulfilled, this
whole earth can be satisfied as far as the necessities are concerned. Then
what? Then what will you do? You will feel in the same position as the priest.
He thought that he was in heaven, and then he found that it was hell. Within
ten years the whole earth can become a hell.
The nonessential is needed for
your madness to remain engaged. So moons are not enough, we will have to go
further, we will have to go on creating the useless. It is needed. People need
it to be occupied.
A man of Tao is not a man of
much activity. His actions are the most essential - those which cannot be
avoided. That which can be avoided, he avoids. He is so happy with himself
there is no need to move in actions. His activity is like inactivity; he does
without there being anybody doing.
He is an empty boat, moving on
the sea, not going anywhere.
Yet he does not know himself to be kind and gentle.
Allow this point to penetrate
deep into your heart. Yet he does not
know himself to be kind and gentle - because if you know, you have missed
the point; if you know that you are a simple man, you are not. This knowledge
makes it complex. If you know that you are a man of religion, you are not,
because this cunning mind which knows is still there.
When you are gentle, and you
don't know, when you are simple, and you are not aware of it, it has become
your nature. When something is really natural you are not aware of it, but when
something is imposed, you are aware of it. When somebody becomes rich, newly
rich, he is aware of his house, of his swimming pool, of his riches, and you
can see that he is not an aristocrat, because he is so concerned with show.
A newly rich man ordered three
swimming pools for his garden. They were made and he was showing them to a
friend. The friend was a little puzzled. He said, "Three swimming pools?
For what? One will do."
The newly rich man said,
"No, how can one do? One for hot baths, one for cold baths."
His friend asked, "And the
third?"
He answered, "For those
who cannot swim. So the third swimming pool is going to stay empty."
You can see if a man has newly
acquired wealth - he will be showing it. A real aristocrat is one who has
forgotten that he is rich. A man of Tao is the aristocrat of the inner world.
If a person shows his religion
he is not yet really religious. The religion is still like a thorn, it is not
natural, it hurts, he is eager to show it. If you want to show your simplicity
what type of simplicity is this? If you exhibit your gentleness, then it is
simply cunning, nothing gentle exists in it.
A man of Tao is an aristocrat
of the inner world. He is so attuned to it, there is no exhibition - not only
to you, he himself is not aware of it. He does not know that he is wise, he
does not know that he is innocent - how can you know if you are innocent? Your
knowledge will disturb the innocence.
A follower of Hazrat Mohammed
went with him to the mosque for early morning prayer. It was summer, and on the
way back they saw many people still asleep in their houses or just on the
street. It was early morning, a summer morning, and many people were still
asleep. The man very arrogantly said to Hazrat Mohammed, "What will happen
to these sinners? They have not been to the morning prayer."
Today was the first time he
himself had gone to prayer. Yesterday he was also asleep like these sinners.
The newly rich man wanted to exhi-bit, to show off to Mohammed: "Mohammed
Hazrat, what will happen to these sinners? They have not been to the morning
prayer, they are still lazy and asleep."
Mohammed stopped and said,
"You go home, I will have to go back to the mosque again."
The man said, "Why?"
He replied, "My morning
prayer is wasted because of you; keeping company with you has destroyed
everything. I will have to do my prayer again. And as for you, remember please
never to come again.
It was better for you to be
asleep like the others; at least they were not sinners then. Your prayer has
done only one thing - it has given you the key to condemn others."
The so-called religious person
is religious only to look at you with a condemning eye so he can say that you
are sinners. Go to your saints, so-called saints, and look into their eyes. You
will not find the innocence that should be there. You will find a calculating
mind looking at you and thinking about hell: You will be thrown in hell and I
will be in heaven, because I have been praying so much, five times a day, and I
have been fasting so much. As if you can purchase heaven...! These are the
coins - fasting, prayer - these are the coins one is trying to bargain with.
If you see condemnation in the
eyes of a saint, know well that he is a newly rich man; he is not yet an
aristocrat of the inner world, he has not yet become one with it. He may know
it - but you know something only when it is separate from you.
One thing has to be remembered
here: because of this, self-knowledge is impossible. You cannot know the self,
because whenever you know it, it is not the self, it is something else,
something separate from you. The self is always the knower, never the known, so
how can you know it? You cannot reduce it to an object.
I can see you. How can I see
myself? Then who will be the seer and who will be the seen? No, the self cannot
be known in the same way that other things are known.
Self-knowledge is not possible
in the ordinary sense, because the knower always transcends, always goes
beyond. Whatsoever it knows, it is not that. The Upanishads say: NETI NETI -
not this, not that. Whatsoever you know, you are not this; whatsoever you don't
know, you are not that either.
You are the one who knows, and
this knower cannot be reduced to a known object.
Self-knowledge is not possible.
If your innocence comes out of your inner source you cannot know it. If you
have imposed it from the outside you can know it; if it is just like a dress
you have put on you know it, but it is not the very breath of your life. That
innocence is cultivated, and a cultivated innocence is an ugly thing.
A man of Tao does not know
himself to be kind and gentle. He IS gentle, but he doesn't know; he is kind,
but he doesn't know; he is love, but he doesn't know - because the lover and
the knower are not two, the gentleness, the kindness, the compassion and the
knower, are not two. No, they cannot be divided into the known and the knower.
This is the inner aristocracy: when you have become so rich you are not aware of
it. When you are that rich, there is no need to exhibit it.
I have heard:
It happened once that Henry
Ford came to England. At the airport inquiry office he asked for the cheapest
hotel in town. The clerk in the office looked - the face was famous. Henry Ford
was known all over the world. Just the day before there were big pictures of
him in the newspapers saying that he was coming. And here he was, asking for
the cheapest hotel, wearing a coat that looked as old as he himself.
So the clerk said, "If I
am not mistaken, you are Mr. Henry Ford. I remember well, I have seen your
picture."
The man said, "Yes."
This puzzled the clerk very
much, and he said, "You are asking for the cheapest hotel, wearing a coat
that looks as old as you yourself. I have also seen your son coming here, and
he always inquires about the best hotel, and he comes in the best of
clothes."
Henry Ford is reported to have
said, "Yes, my son's behavior is exhibitionist, he is not yet attuned.
There is no need for me to stay
in a costly hotel; wherever I stay I am Henry Ford. Even in the cheapest hotel
I am Henry Ford, it makes no difference. My son is still new, afraid of what
people will think if he stays in a cheap hotel. And this coat, yes, this
belonged to my father - but it makes no difference, I don't need new clothes. I
am Henry Ford, whatsoever the dress; even if I am standing naked, I am Henry
Ford. It makes no difference at all."
When you are really attuned,
really rich in the inner world, you are not concerned with exhibition.
When you first go to a temple,
your prayer is a little louder than others. It has to be. You want to show off.
The showmanship is part of the
ego, what you show is not the problem. You show, you exhibit. Then the ego is
there, the boat is not empty - and a man of Tao is an empty boat. He is gentle,
not aware; he is innocent, not knowing; he is wise, that's why he can move as a
fool, not worried. Whatsoever he does makes no difference, his wisdom is
intact, he can afford to be foolish. You cannot.
You are always afraid that
somebody may think you a fool. You are afraid that if others think you to be a
fool, you will start suspecting it. If so many people think you a fool your
self-confidence will be lost. And if everybody goes on repeating that you are a
fool, sooner or later you will come to believe it.
Only a wise man cannot be
deceived, he can appear as a fool.
I have heard about one wise man
who was known as The Madman. Nobody knew anything else about him, his name or
anything, he was just known as The Madman. He was a Jew, and Jews have created
a few really wise men, they have something of the inner source. That is why
Jesus could be born amongst them.
This madman behaved in such a
foolish way that the whole community became disturbed because nobody knew what
he was going to do next. On the religious days, Yom Kippur or other festivals,
the whole community was afraid, because it could not be predicted what this
rabbi would do, how he would appear there, how he would behave. His prayers
were also mad.
Once he called the court, the
Jewish court, all the ten judges of the court. The court came, because the
rabbi called, and he said, "I have a case against God, so decide how to
punish this fellow God. I will present all the arguments to prove that God is
unjust and a criminal."
The judges became very much
afraid but they had to listen because he was the rabbi, the head of the temple.
And he made out his case like a lawyer in court.
He said, "God, you created
the world, and now you send messengers telling us how to renounce it. What
foolishness! You gave us desires and now all your teachers keep coming and
saying: Be desireless. So what do you think you are doing? And if we have
committed any sins it is really YOU who are the culprit, because why did you
create desire?"
What should the court decide?
He was right, but the court decided that this man had gone completely mad and
should be expelled from the temple.
But this man is really telling
the truth. He loves God so much that it is an I/thou relationship, so intimate.
He asks, "What are you doing? Enough, now stop, no more fooling." He
must have loved the divine so much that he could behave in that way.
And it is said that God
immediately stopped when he called. He had to listen to this man.
And the angels asked,
"Suddenly you stopped, what happened?"
He said, "That madman is
praying. I have to listen, because whatsoever he says is true, and he loves me
so much that there is no need for formality...." In love, in hate,
everything is permitted, everything is allowed.
This madman was passing and a
woman came to him. She asked, "I have been longing and longing for a child
for forty years now. And if within three or four years a child does not come,
then it will not be possible. So help me."
The madman said, "I can
help, because my mother had the same trouble. She waited and waited for forty
years and no child came. Then she went to Baal Shem, a mystic; she told him, and
he intervened. My mother gave him a beautiful cap. Baal Shem put the cap on his
head, looked up and said to God, 'What are you doing? This is unjust. There is
nothing wrong in the demand of this woman, so give her a child.' And after nine
months, I was born."
So the woman said, beaming and
happy, "I will go home and I will bring you a more beautiful cap than you
have ever seen. Then will the child be born to me?"
Said the madman, "You have
missed the point. My mother never knew the story. Your cap won't do, you have
missed. You cannot imitate religion, you cannot imitate prayer. Once you
imitate you have missed." So whenever people came to this madman, he would
say, "Don't imitate, throw away all the scriptures."
When this madman died he had
all the books that had been written about him burned. And the last thing he did
was to say to his disciples, "Go around the house and search, and tell me
that nothing is left, so that I can die at ease. Not even a single letter
written by me should be left; otherwise after I die people will start
following, and when you follow, you miss." So everything was gathered and
burned. Then he said, "Now I can die easily, I am not leaving any traces
behind."
This type of wise man is not
afraid. How can a wise man be afraid of anybody? He can to all appearances be a
fool, he need not exhibit his wisdom.
Have you observed yourself? You
are always trying to exhibit your wisdom, always in search of a victim to whom
you can show your knowledge, just searching, hunting for somebody weaker than
you - then you will jump in and you will show your wisdom.
A wise man need not be an
exhibitionist. Whatsoever is, is. He is not aware of it, he is not in any hurry
to show it. If you want to find it, you will have to make efforts. If you have
to know whether he is gentle or not, that is going to be your discovery.
He does not struggle to make money,
And he does not make a virtue out of poverty.
Remember this. It is very easy
to make money and it is also very easy to make a virtue of poverty.
But these two types are not
different. A man keeps on making money, and then suddenly he gets frustrated.
He has achieved, and nothing is gained - so he renounces. Then poverty becomes
the virtue, then he lives the life of a poor man and then he says: This is the
only real life, this is religious life. This man is the same, nothing has
changed. The pendulum moved to the left but now has gone to the other extreme.
He does not struggle to make money...
This you will understand; the
other part is more difficult.
...He does not make a virtue out of poverty.
He is neither poor nor rich. He
is not making any effort to make money, he is not making any effort to be poor
- whatever happens he allows it to happen. If a palace happens, he will be in
the palace; if the palace disappears, he will not look for it. Whatever is
happening, he will be with it, his bliss cannot be disturbed. He is not
struggling for money, he is not struggling for poverty.
He goes his way without relying on others...
This you can understand easily.
He goes his way without relying on others,
And does not pride himself on walking alone.
You depend on others, your
wife, your children, your father, mother, friends, society; then suddenly you
drop everything and escape to the Himalayas. Then you start priding yourself: I
live alone, I don't need anybody, I am free of that world.
Even then you are still not
alone because your aloneness still depends on the world. How could you be alone
if there was not a world to leave? How could you be alone if there was not a
society to renounce? How could you be alone if there was not wife, children,
family to leave behind? Your aloneness depends on them. How could you be poor
if there was no money to be left? Your poverty depends on your riches.
No, a perfect man, a man who is
really a sage, the man of Tao, goes his way without relying on others. If you
rely on others you will suffer, if you rely on others, you will always be in
bondage, you will become dependent and weak. But that doesn't mean that you
should pride yourself that you walk alone. Walk alone, but don't take pride in
it. Then you can move in the world without being a part of it. Then you can be
a husband without being a husband. Then you can possess without being possessed
by your possessions. Then the world is there outside, but not within. Then you
are there, but not corrupted by it.
This is true loneliness -
moving in the world without being touched by it. But if you are proud, you have
missed. If you think, "I have become somebody," the boat is not
empty, and again you have fallen victim of the ego.
The man of Tao remains unknown.
Perfect virtue produces nothing.
No self is true self. And the greatest man is nobody.
Listen... The man of Tao
remains unknown. Not that nobody will know him, but it is up to you to discover
him. He is not making any effort to be known. Effort to be known comes from the
ego, because ego cannot exist when you are unknown, it exists only when you are
known. It exists, feeds, when people look at you, when they pay attention to
you, when you are somebody important, significant.
But how can you be significant
if nobody knows you? When the whole world knows you, then you are significant.
That is why people are after fame so much, and if fame cannot be achieved then
they will settle for being notorious - but not for being unknown! If people
cannot praise you then you will settle for being condemned, but you cannot bear
that they should be indifferent to you.
I have heard about a politician
who once had a great following. Many people appreciated him - until he became
powerful...
When you are not in power you
look very innocent, because when there is no power what can you do, how can you
hide? So your real nature comes to be known only when you get power.
Look at the Gandhians in India
before Independence - so saintly. And now everything has gone to the opposite
extreme. Now they are the most corrupt. What happened? A simple law: when they
were not in power they were like doves, innocent; when power came they became
like serpents, cunning, corrupted, exploiting.
Your real nature is known only
when you have power. When you CAN harm, then it is known whether you will harm
or not.
Lord Acton said: Power
corrupts, and absolute power corrupts absolutely. No, that is not right. Power
never corrupts, it only brings corruption out. How can power corrupt? You were
already corrupt but there was no outlet for it. You were already ugly but you
were standing in darkness. Now you are standing in light, so will you say that
light makes you ugly? No, light only reveals.
...This politician was very
much appreciated and loved, he had a charismatic personality. Then he came to
power and everybody was against him. He was thrown out, his name became
notorious, he was condemned everywhere, so he had to leave his town because the
people would not allow him to live there, he had done such harm.
So with his wife he was looking
for a new residence in a new town. He traveled to many towns just to look and
feel where to stay. And then in one town people started throwing stones at him.
He said, "This will be the right place, we should choose this town."
The wife said, "Are you
mad? Have you gone crazy? The people are throwing stones."
The politician said, "At
least they are not indifferent."
Indifference hurts you most
because the ego cannot exist in indifference. With either for me or against me
the ego can exist, but don't be indifferent to me because then how can I exist,
how can the ego exist? The man of Tao remains unknown. That means that he is
not seeking people to know him. If they want to know, they should seek him.
Perfect virtue produces nothing.
This is one of the basics of
Taoist life.
Perfect virtue produces
nothing, because when you are perfectly virtuous nothing is needed. When you are
perfectly virtuous there is no desire, there is no motivation. You are perfect.
How can perfection move? Only imperfection moves. Only imperfection desires to
produce something. So a perfect artist never paints a picture, and a perfect
musician throws away his sitar. A perfect archer breaks his bow and throws it
away, and a perfect man like Buddha is absolutely useless. What has Buddha
produced - poetry, a sculpture, a painting, a society? He seems to be
absolutely unproductive, he has done nothing.
Perfect virtue produces nothing, because it needs nothing.
Production comes out of desire, production comes because you are imperfect. You
create something as a substitute because you feel unfulfilled. When you are
absolutely fulfilled, why should you create, how can you create?
Then you yourself have become
the glory of creation, then the inner being itself is so perfect, nothing is
needed.
Perfect virtue produces nothing. If the world is virtuous, all
utilitarian goals will be lost.
If the world is really virtuous
there will be play and no production. Then the whole thing will just become a
game. You enjoy it, but you don't need it. A perfect sage is absolutely
useless.
No self is true self.
When you feel that you are not,
for the first time you are, because the self is nothing but a synonym for the
ego. That is why Buddha, Lao Tzu, Chuang Tzu, they all say there is no self, no
ATMAN. Not that there is not - they say there is no atman, there is no self,
because your ego is so cunning it can hide behind it. You can say, AHAM
BRAHMASMI, I am Brahman...ANA'L HAQ, I am God, and the ego can hide behind it.
Buddha says there is nobody to
claim, there is no self within you. Buddha says you are like the onion: you
peel, you go on peeling the layers, and finally nothing remains. Your mind is
like an onion, go on peeling. This is what meditation is - go on peeling, go on
peeling, and a moment comes when nothing is left. That nothingness is your true
self. No self is true self. When the
boat is empty then only for the first time you are in the boat.
And the greatest man is nobody.
It happened that Buddha
renounced the kingdom. Then he went searching from one forest to another, from
one ashram to another, from one master to another, walking. He had never walked
before without shoes but now he was just a beggar. He was passing along the
bank of a river, walking on the sand, and his footprints were left.
While resting in the shade of a
tree an astrologer saw him. The astrologer was returning from Kashi, from the
seat of learning. He had become proficient in astrology, had become perfect,
and now that he had become a great doctor of astrology he was coming back to
his home town to practice. He looked at the footprint on the wet sand and he
became disturbed: These footprints could not belong to an ordinary man walking
on the sand without shoes during such a hot summer, at noontime!
These feet belong to a great
emperor, a CHAKRAVARTIN. A chakravartin is the emperor who rules the whole
world. All the symbols were there showing that this man was a chakravartin, an
emperor of the whole world of the six continents. And why should a chakravartin
walk barefoot on the sand on such a hot summer afternoon? It was impossible!
The astrologer was carrying his
most valuable books. He thought, "If this is possible I should throw these
books in the river and forget astrology forever, because this is absurd. It is
very, very difficult to find a man who has the feet of a chakravartin. Once in
millions of years a man becomes a chakravartin, and what is this chakravartin
doing here?"
So he followed the footprints
to their source and he looked at Buddha who was sitting resting under a tree
with closed eyes, and he became more disturbed. This astrologer became
absolutely disturbed because the face was also the face of a chakravartin. But
the man looked like a beggar, with his begging bowl just there by his side,
with torn clothes. But the face looked like that of a chakravartin, so what
should he do?
He said, "I am very
disturbed, put me at ease. There is only one question I have to ask. I have
seen and studied your footprints. They should belong to a chakravartin, to a
great emperor who rules over all the world, the whole earth is his kingdom -
and you are a beggar. So what should I do? Should I throw away all my astrology
books? My twelve years of effort in Kashi have been wasted and those people
there are fools. I have wasted the most important part of my life, so put me at
ease. Tell me, what should I do?"
Buddha said, "You need not
worry. This will not happen again. You take your books, go to the town, start
your practice and don't bother about me. I was born to be a chakravartin. These
footprints carry my past."
All footprints carry your past
- the lines on your hand, your palm, carry your past. That is why astrology,
palmistry, is always true about the past, never so true about the future, and
absolutely untrue about a buddha, because one who throws off his whole past
moves into the unknown - you cannot predict his future.
Buddha said, "You will not
come to such a troublesome man again. Don't you worry, this will not happen
again, take it as an exception."
But the astrologer said,
"A few more questions. I would like to know who you are: am I really
seeing a dream? A chakravartin sitting like a beggar? Who are you? Are you an
emperor in disguise?"
Buddha said, "No."
Then the astrologer asked,
"But your face looks so beautiful, so calm, so filled with inner silence.
Who are you? Are you an angel
from paradise?"
Buddha said, "No."
The astrologer asked one more
question, saying, "It seems impolite to ask, but you have created the
desire and the urge. Are you a human being? If you are not an emperor, a
chakravartin, if you are not a DEVA from paradise, are you a human being?"
And Buddha said, "No, I am
nobody. I don't belong to any form, to any name."
The astrologer said, "You
have disturbed me even more now. What do you mean?"
This is what Buddha meant:
And the greatest man is nobody.
You can be somebody, but you
cannot be the greatest. There is always someone greater somewhere in the world.
And who is somebody? You are the measure. You say that this man is great - but
who is the measure? You.
The spoon is the measure of the
ocean. You say, "This man is great." You say, and many like you say,
"This man is great" - and he becomes great because of you!
No. In this world, whoever is
somebody cannot be the greatest, because the ocean cannot be measured by
spoons. And you are all teaspoons measuring the ocean. No, it is not possible.
So the really greatest will be
nobody amongst you. What does it mean when Chuang Tzu says, "The greatest
will be nobody"? It means: it will be immeasurable. You cannot measure,
you cannot label, you cannot categorize, you cannot say, "Who is
this?" He simply escapes measurement. He simply goes beyond and beyond and
beyond and the teaspoon falls to the ground.
Enough for today.
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